The Affair (TV show)
Has anyone watched The Affair? I know I did it to myself but I just finished watching the first season and got a little triggered. I saw myself in Helen's character, when she said she didn't want to divorce her husband because she didn't know how to do life without him and how she misses him and still loves him. Six years later, when those who know about my husband's affair ask me how we're doing, I've realized that I started to answer indifferently. I no longer think about the before days and long for them. I've "moved on" in the sense that I've accepted what happened and this is the new relationship now.
I genuinely do love him but sometimes I feel like I am still here because I cannot see how he would not be part of my life. Like I can't get rid of him or unlove him. I go back to feeling like I wish he would've left me and chosen her like Noah chose Allison in the end.
In any case I just googled her and found a gofund me page she set up and I used the contact button to send her an anonymous nasty message (not about the affair, just random nastiness). She was married with three children at the time of the affair and apparently she is a single mom now and it gives me a little happiness that she is alone. Am I a horrible person?
5 comments posted: Monday, July 14th, 2025
